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[Adam7986]

Hey,

I wrote a bit about my experience on the EPF when I was routing in to the Sea Org. Also I included a video of some kids in the Sea Org at the end. Check it out if you get the chance. Pass my blog around as much as you want as well.

http://dbloch7986.blogspot.com/2013/...ect-force.html

[Xenu's Boyfriend]

Adam,

Thank you for this. I was moved by your story. And thank you for being one of the first people to welcome me to ESMB.

For me, no matter how many formal critiques I read about the church, hearing a personal testimonial always makes such a difference to me.

I really appreciated it when you wrote:

The psychological torture you suffer from the separation anxiety and constantly being torn to shreds by members of the Church is indescribable.

And When I was on the EPF there were maybe 15 or 20 other people on there. The youngest was 13 and the oldest was in his 50s, I think.


There is something really wrong with putting 13 years olds with 50 year olds in this kind of situation. It is a perfect invitation for sexual abuse and traumas. But because of Hubbard's great idea that there are no children, just adults who return from past lives, I guess there can be no childhood sexual abuse in his world, or children who need protecting. Children are only valued for the malleability of their minds, and their ability to haul rocks.

I get frustrated here because I see others and myself having intellectual conversations on ESMB about the effectiveness of the tech, and the benefits of the church despite it's "flaws", and I've been criticized for being too harsh, for not knowing what I'm talking about or seeing the values of Scientology in particular contexts.

But when I read about a 13 year old child, as in your case, crying almost every night and shutting off his feelings because he is unhappy - being terrified that if he walks away from the SO he has to worry about his eternity, or whether he will be considered a degraded being, or an SP, it makes me sick to my stomach.

If just one child suffers because of Scientology, it just isn't fucking worth it. And I'm sick of hearing about the value of the goddamn tech. It's Hubbard and the tech he created that perpetuates this shit to this day, and justifies it, and the thousand mile stare that you talk about, and the trained indifference that seems almost sociopathic (your words). As I've said, I've argued this and met some resistance, but in the end, it hurts everyone to know that children are still suffering. And you make a good point about the authorities betraying these kids. Where are they?

Because of your post, and Jenna Miscavige Hill telling her story, and other like you, perhaps government agencies will be shamed and pressured by the public to finally take the action they need to take to protect children in Scientology. And I hope that not only the general public that only listens, but Scientologists, both current, independent, and even some exes who continue to justify the tech, Marty - the good ol' tech that somehow encourages adults to tear a 13 year old boy to "shreds". Maybe then we can stop acting like Hubbard's work is some "free floating" entity out there that has nothing to do with the abuses that you and other children suffer, but the instruction manual of a madman that leads to this result. We can say what we want about adults having choice, but when kids are involved, it's just flat-out fucking wrong.

Thanks for being brave and please excuse my rant - but reading your story made me really angry and sad, especially after seeing that picture of you with your little brother. You needed to be home being a brother to him, not alone, abandoned and serving the church's greed.

I hope you are doing well. Thanks for your post.

[Adam7986]

Hey there man. Thank you for reading.

Yes I agree. I was in a dorm room with 30 other men from all ages. I was an under age boy sleeping and showering ass naked with grown men and old men. There is no consideration put to age in the Sea Org. No one cares. It's wrong. At the time I had no sense of normalcy and so nothing to judge against, but now looking back on it, I can clearly see that it was wrong.

I want to find more places to share my blog so more people can see it. Society needs to know about what is going on in the church and how it affects people, real people. Not just the people on the TV. That is the good and bad part of the media.

Scientology does, in effect, create a sociopathic personality in its followers. It essentially turns off or teaches you to suppress your ability to feel empathy, which is the key thing that a clinical sociopath lacks. If you can't feel empathy you are able to enact all manner of cruelty on fellow humans without feeling remorse or sorrow.

It is this ability to suppress or switch off empathy in followers that allows the church to encourage them to treat ex-members, even their own children, with such cruelty.

[Xenu's Boyfriend]

Hey there man. Thank you for reading.

Yes I agree. I was in a dorm room with 30 other men from all ages. I was an under age boy sleeping and showering ass naked with grown men and old men. There is no consideration put to age in the Sea Org. No one cares. It's wrong. At the time I had no sense of normalcy and so nothing to judge against, but now looking back on it, I can clearly see that it was wrong.

I want to find more places to share my blog so more people can see it. Society needs to know about what is going on in the church and how it affects people, real people. Not just the people on the TV. That is the good and bad part of the media.

Scientology does, in effect, create a sociopathic personality in its followers. It essentially turns off or teaches you to suppress your ability to feel empathy, which is the key thing that a clinical sociopath lacks. If you can't feel empathy you are able to enact all manner of cruelty on fellow humans without feeling remorse or sorrow.

It is this ability to suppress or switch off empathy in followers that allows the church to encourage them to treat ex-members, even their own children, with such cruelty.

Adam, thank you for this, and I hope your blog gets more attention. I'm going to post a link to it in another thread here where I mentioned sociopathology (the Individuation thread) and met some resistance because I wasn't part of the church. Having a testimonial like this, from someone who was, makes a difference.

It seems that people are very interested, more than ever before, to hear about Scientology and its history. I feel that as the years passed more will come forward with their stories of abuse within the church. I like your writing, and maybe this is something you want to expand on in more detail (possibly a book?) I would definitely pass your link on to Tony Ortega - he seems to be a bit of an archivist and as he is working on a book of his own, he may want to interview you at length. Good luck.