Thank you. I knew if I replied to some earlier posts I'd have gotten called on infractions. Like we don't KNOW....NOW??? and don't beat the hell out ourselves almost every day? Really thought that my son would be ok....thought it was just my little org that was fucked up and off-policy. Thought in a perfect on-Source world, in the SO he'd be happy. The son that stayed behind and has also left the cult? We're best friends. Thinks I'm the greatest mom in the world and has forgiven me. I FUCKED UP! I was lied to! Don't worry...I do feel bad. I read some posts and my initial reaction is to want to slit my wrists. Not going there at ALL (I'm a bit of the drama queen and I am healing from all this cult crap) but, we know...we know. You can't beat us up more than we've beaten ourselves up. I haven't been posting to my story lately, but I think I need to get back to it again pretty soon. Us parents who went through this sort of thing, who believed that we were doing the "greatest good" are out there, and need to tell the tale. Not to "justify", but just so that people can see there are real human beings behind all of this tragedy. Thanks again, Carmel. ugh, I'm posting off of emotion, so I hope this makes some sense, because I'm not up to rereading and correcting it.





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I hope others will see the whole thing for what it is and do the same what are they gonna do attack us all??
