Same here. Somehow I never got anyone in in my nine years. Maybe because deep down I knew it wasn't worthwhile. I always hated the idea of disseminating. However, after I left I prevented a co-worker from joining staff at Flag by scaring the shit out of her and gave her my copy of "Messiah or Madman". I was very proud to prevent another casualty. She never gave me my book back! Hopefully she used the book to prevent someone else from becoming a victim.