I didn't feel embarassment. Ever.
The incidents I named were not embarassing (I've explained why) and were all the ones that happened over a number of years. So it was far from a daily basis. I'm a defiant person. Someone acting like an asshole about something I'm doing rather than just speaking with me like a normal decent human being does not ever ever ever make me stop doing what I'm doing.
I left the church- I didn't blow- because they wanted to stop me from posting to the internet and I wasn't even posting anything critical at the time. But they didn't want me on a.r.s., they kept interfering and treating me with contempt while still asking for more money and time. That was the last straw. They called me in for a meter check and I refused to do it. They implied they'd maybe mess with my marriage since I could have been expelled (which I later was) and then John, as a member in good standing, wouldn't be able to be with me. John made it clear that he doesn't roll over for shit like that. No Swazey ever rolls over. That's why I have exactly the reputation I have in critical venues and message boards. And bad cess to anyone who can't deal with it.
I am always in the driver's seat. I do not get intimidated or shamed into doing anything. I leave places (I recently ditched a 6 year job, too, by the way) because I think for myself and I act for myself.