I would not go OT because of what I saw with the OT's. Arogant, uncaring, mean and unloving.
Now that I had enough time in the Cult and have done my own research with my very bright and accurate mind, I can clearly see that this evil Organization makes people on staff do things they normally would not do. Everyone is spinning trying to help themselves and each other but they make mistakes. Some are HUGE mistakes. "The person around an SP gets so restimulated, they cannot detect the real SP" They make mistakes. LRH, DM and the TECH are the SP's.
If we did not need an 8th dynamic to survive, there would be NO religions anywher. The fact of the matter is that we do need an 8th dynamic. LRH is not it. Find your higher power (God) however you need to find it. You do need one, that is a fact. Surrender to the fact that Scientology gets everyone to make mistakes to hurt themselves and others. Forgive yourself, forgive others. Surrender to you higher power and start your spiritual journey again. You have much wisdom now You know that there is such a thing as "mind control" and it has been used on you to get into the heap full of fail that we all got into by doing Scientology.
It all begins with surrender, forgiveness and love.
Much love to you all!