It's not "therapy" per se but a place to get info and meet with people who know what you going through because they've been through it directly.
They are all nice people who've suffered at the hands of a toxic cult - and there's plenty more around than just Scientology
Paul David Schofield
"Scooter" to his friends
If he has no friends and everyone's against him
If he's failed in everything that he has tried
Try to lift his load, help to bear his burden
Let him know that you are walking by his side
And if he feels that all is lost and he is fallen
Try to place that poor man's feet on solid ground
Just remember he's some mother's precious darlin'
Always lift him up and never knock him down
Blind Alfred Reed
Talk about it - talk about it on here with us - most of us on here have been damaged by cult membership, most of us know EXACTLY what you mean when you say you have forgotten how to be yourself.
The bad news is - we were all damaged. the great news is - we do heal.
Therapists are, by and large, useless unless they have had extensive exposure to cult involvement. (IMHO)
If I may suggest reading Steven Hassan's book "Breaking the bonds"? May be of help.
You are not alone Barbie - far from it.
a quick question and you do not have to answer this (one of the healing steps in recovering from a cult is rediscovering the boundaries of privacy!) but you have not mentioned which cult you were involved in ? Do you fear some sort of retribution? (as you will have seen on here it is a very common fear among ex members of cults).
I am interested in not just Scientology but in the recovery from other cults as well.
AFAIK: as far as I know
self is never sufficient
I was in a highly abusive relationship for about three years before escaping. Ten years later, I still occasionally identified 'triggers' of how my reactions were still shaped by that experience. Annoying-- I wanted to be fully 'over it,' but there I was.
One year out after 18 years in? Give yourself time. Accept that experience shapes perception for better and for worse. Recognizing "Oh, that's a trigger" is a great way to defuse the intensity of the feelings, and gaining new, different experiences increases options on how to perceive. So: Live, live, live, as Dulloldfart suggested. With time you'll gain distance to be even mildly amused by your own knee-jerk reactions. It's a strange feeling.