Thank you to Greebly for a 2.5 hr phone call to hear my some of my story this week. This has led to me definitely deciding to begin to write my story, which I will do once I have put the timelines together.
There are so many people still "In" who are now second or third generation Scientologists who will never get to hear what we have to say unless we can reach them somehow. They don't know anything else. I was a child of Scientology, and wonder sometimes how much of how this informed who and what I am today. They truly seem unaware of what real life is about, and fed the tripe of how dangerous it is in the Wog World.
It is such a sadness to me and grieves me deeply that the abuses still continue, and the children of Scientologists in the Sea Org who are now grown up will never know anything else. Does anyone know if they ever get to see what we post if they are not allowed TV and papers? Even DM is a product of having grown up as a child in Scientology, moulded and bent into the shape he has become today, truly believing he is the Master of all he purveys.
I would like to play my small part to try to stop these abuses. I was on the Apollo; I was an RPF's RPF guinea pig for LRH; I was locked up in the chain locker of the ship for three days; I was on this ship for a year with no education, no parents aged 11 to 12; I was punched in the face trying to stop a fight between the Captain and a member of staff; I was raped at aged 14 whilst in the Sea Org at AOSHUK; I, and all my fellow S.O. members who weren't lucky enough to have "outside" money went hungry; many of the girls who had painful monthly cycles were never allowed to take painkillers..... Calmag ring a bell anyone!
How bad do our stories have to be for someone who can make a difference sits up and takes notice? How many beatings, punches, recommended abortions, being held against one's will, restrictions of liberty and free speech, empty pockets, lack of pay, humiliations, cow towing, dunkings, physical exhaustion. We must stand up and be listened to. Someone told me recently that I had been declared. Was news to me but no surprise, and certainly will be made more public the more public I become!
I for one will be there to support whoever you are, wherever you are, along with all our fellow exes who feel the same way.
Thank you for being there ESMB... you have helped me gain the courage to finally begin to speak out. It has only taken me over 20 years... 20 years too long. x