
Originally Posted by
barky
Thanks, but I'm going to be a bit honest here. I don't really want to be back. I want my life back. I just want to be a regular guy, living his life, doing his job, having some fun. I don't want this. I didn't ask for this. I went to this 'church' for help, and got trapped in an endless cycle of cash, wins, invalidation, repairs, and more cash. Now, it fears, I can never just be rid of it.
I was fortunate enough to flee relatively unscathed (especially as compared to OTs who lost fortunes, and long-time SO members who lost, well, everything). But it still sucked big-time. My time in Scn is like a big, painful scar. It hurts every time I breathe, but is hidden under my shirt so no one else knows it's there.
Put simply, I don't want to be a member of the ex-Scn club anymore! Yes, lurking (and occasionally participating) in this site and other sites has been very helpful, but I'm not one of those who are dedicated to the Church's downfall (or reform or whatever). I just want to go back to being a middle-class schmoe with middle-class friends and a middle-class life. I want this all put behind me.
In the last few months, I didn't even look at this website! But now, voila! Some lame-assed new release, and a former friend with no integrity whatsover, have f&cked everything up. Now I have to get back in the game, on one side or the other.
Grrrrrr!