Congratulations, it seems that you were a Loyal Officer, not on this Earth at the time of Incident 2, nor were you captured and brought to Earth during Incident 2, and you did not have to endure the mass implanting to which the BTs were subjected. Yet, according to OT 3, anyone, on Earth now, has oodles of Incident 2-implanted BTs which need to be blown.
From
Ron's Journal 67:
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The material involved in this sector is so vicious that it is carefully arranged to kill
anyone if he discovers the exact truth of it.
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So in January and February of this year, I became very ill, almost lost the body, and somehow or other brought it off and obtained the material, and was able to live through it.
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I am very sure that I was the fist one that ever did live through any attempt to obtain that material. This material I'm talking about, of course, is very upper level material and you will forgive me if I don't describe it to you in very broad detail because it is very likely
to make you sick too."
One might ask, what is "the material involved in ths sector" that "is so vicious"?
It was the 4th dynamic engram - as described by Hubbard - called Incident 2 of OT 3 of 75 million years ago.
The material of 'History of Man' is not part of OT 3, but the approach to "handling" any "invalidators " can be traced back to H.O.M.:
From the
'History of Man' [
"This is a cold blooded and factual account of your last 60 trillion years"] by L. Ron Hubbard, early 1952, originally titled
'What to Audit':
"Tell people who want to invalidate all this, 'Your criticism is very just. It's only fantasy.' ."
Hubbard was playing head-games with his followers for a long time.
From Introduction to the Clearing Course and OT 2 materials:
"Many persons experience unreality
at the start of [implant] GPM running[ancient implants told to the person, through the OT materials, by L. Ron Hubbard] This leaves when you see the meter reads."
This is an except from a post from DartSmohen, a student on the first Class VIII course on the Apollo in 1968:
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Did you ever wonder why so many people died on NOT's? Why people committed suicide on OT3 and NOTS ?, strokes ? heart attacks ? cancers ?
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How many people have been left penniless, their lives turned upside down, families broken up, all because of this insane and obscene dream ?
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Do you think Hubbard didn't know what was going on ? Do you think that despite his own phobias that he knew deep down that it was never going to work, but what a great marketing tool. How much cash has been poured into the cult in the name of these pointless activities. (Let us not forget the well-intentioned FZ and RO).

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And some more from DartSmohen:
"Once again, I pose the question; Is it all a matter of suggestion?
"It has been commented on, and confirmed by those who were with him at the time, that the content of "Inc 1 & 2" are the drug fuelled ramblings of Hubbard.
"Recent postings regarding the origin of 'Xemnu' have served to accelerate the popping of the OT3 'bubble'. Hubbard was a sci-fi fanatic and it is no coincidence that he launched Dianetics through a sci-fi magazine.
"Thus it would be a fair comment to make that further 'developments' made by RO and Freezone, based on the Hubbard OT principles, are in their own way 'castles built on sand'.
"The early materials which Hubbard drew on for his basic procedures are surely the more valid. they have stood the test of time and do produce genuine case gain.
"Remember, as a person becomes more and more involved in the pursuit of 'OT' through whatever version of upper materials are being offered, they become that bit more susceptible to suggestion.
"No doubt the adherents of RO and Freezone will wish to take issue with the above comments, but neither of these groups can deny that here is an element of suggestion in what is presented and run."
Scientology uses mostly benign writings and actions as lead-ins to the deeper and darker regions of Scientology. These mostly benign actions are a kind of disguise that protects Scientology, and deflects criticism, plus serves to convince Scientology newbies that Scientology's critics must be deranged, since they're denouncing as destructive a simple action that is, by itself, benign.
Those new to Scientology, having read a Dianetic or Scientology book, and having (naive or deceitful) Scientologists, saying, 'What is true for you is true for you,' etc., and having their attention directed to a long and impressive-looking 'Grade Chart', which would seem to promise 'more of the same but even better', have sometimes decided to become more deeply involved.
'You've had a sampling of what's to come, and it only gets better.'
Of course, Scientology is a 'bait and switch operation', and "what you see" is - ultimately - not 'what you get'.
Scientology, IMO, is an enlightenment-coated trap. And, as confusing as it may sometimes seem, and as difficult as it may sometimes be to explain, that enlightenment-coating, by itself, is not necessarily a bad thing -
as long as it's kept in mind that it's the 'cheese' in the Scientology mind-trap."