Setting the Record Straight
I feel that it is time that I set the record straight regarding myself.
I’ve already shucked the title of “Scientologist” earlier on this message board and I feel it’s time to go all the way.
I feel that honesty is the best policy at his point. This way if I’m totally honest about my situation and OSA can no longer hurt my reputation by forwarding the lie that I’m OSA.
It seems as though recently OSA has been hard at work again trying to convince people that I’m OSA. I’ve been and done my share of things in life but working for the Office of Special Affairs of the church of scientology was not one of them.
I realized recently that OSA was at their work again when I was innocently trying to build a friendship with Silvia Kusada when things went completely wrong. ARC breaks started to happen for no reason and things went downhill quickly. Now I realize that someone was 3rd parting me by telling her that I was OSA.
I know that what I have to say at this time will more than like result in my being banned from ESMB. If it happens, I will understand and not hold it against Emma. But after 9 years, I feel it’s time to clear some things up and set some things to right.
The truth is just this:
My name is Tim Higgs. In the years 2003-2007, I did post under the name of “Truth Seeker” on ARS. Let me also make this clear, I’m not Neil Woods as it is stated on Aida Thomas’s blog.
The name “Truth Seeker” was giving to me back when I was a teenager by a man of wisdom while he was trying to guide me through some of the darkest days of my life.
I remember one day we were talking about something and he looks at me with a surprise on his face and said: “Ah, you’re a truth seeker”. I then said: “Well, isn’t everyone?” and he then said: “no”. This early man of wisdom in my life was into Buddhism.
He was the first person who introduced me to the idea of being responsible for what happening in your life because it could be the result of something you did in a past life. Up to that point, I pretty much blamed all the shortcomings in my life on the situation I was born into.
Back in 2003, when I stared posting on ARS, I did what I felt was the best thing to do. I had totally ARC broken with the church of scientology because of the outnesses at my local Org and the ED International not returning my letter to him warning that if he didn’t take action and give me justice, I was going to communicate these outnesses to the 3rd dynamic. When I didn’t hear back from him, that pretty much was the straw that broke the camels back for me.
Back in 2003, in addition to writing posts about what happened to me, I compiled an “osa trolls” list for the purpose of warning people who the OSA operatives were so readers of the newsgroup could know who they were and not be the effect of them. I picked up this idea from a person who posted before me on ARS who went by the name of “Dorian”. In my opinion, “Dorian” seemed to be a very intelligent man and maybe also an attorney.
Yes, I admit at this time that I put people on that list that should not have been. But at the time, I firmly believe that they did belong on that list. My intention for the “trolls list” was not to malign anyone but to protect readers from the games OSA plays.
One person in particular that I put on that list that should not have been on that list was Tory Christman.
From my understanding, Tory had done some work for OSA before leaving the church and joining the LMT with Bob Minton. Because shortly after Tory joined the LMT, the LMT went down, I assumed that there was a strong possibility that she was mole and played a big part in bringing it down. Part of the reason I suspected this is because it is one of OSA’s modus operandi’s to use infiltration to bring down an enemy camp. I thought at the time that is was best to be safe than sorry when it came to Tory so she was put on the list.
I realize now that Tory was not OSA. Tory, if you are reading his, I truly apologize for all that happened between us. I know that you are probably still angry and you have the right to be. I know that we said a lot to each other that resulted in some hurt feelings. Tory, I’m sorry, I made a mistake. I hope you can forgive me one day. I know that you wanted me to admit to this in a public domain, well now I’m doing so now. I guess it’s better late than never.
There were other people that I put on that list that should not have been on that list like Barbara Graham ( Barbz ) and Arnie Lerma. Barb, I know that I use to call you a “OSA whore” back then. I’m sorry, I realize now that you were not OSA. You just seem to get a kick at of picking with my posts and I assumed that you were OSA for doing so. I guess you just liked fucking with me. In my opinion, Arnie Lerma may be a little weird, but I don’t think he’s OSA. There’s also Joe Lynn, aka “Zinj” but I’m still not sure about that guy but my current consensus is that he’s not OSA just has an active imagination and needs to get a life.
Yes, there were probably other names on that list that shouldn’t have been on it but I had to put their names on the list because even if they weren’t OSA, they were forwarding OSA’s agenda against me and were behaving like OSA. They were PTS to OSA and were assisting OSA’s even if they didn’t realize it.
Please understand, a person can be forwarding OSA’s agenda and not necessarily be working for OSA or even be conscious that they are doing so. OSA seemed to be good at making pawns out of others to do their dirty work and ARS had its share.
Understand, they were a lot better at it and more formidable than they are now. To be publicly against the church of scientology in the 90’s and early 2000’s was a very risky thing to do, a lot riskier than it is now.
As for the Silvia Kusada blog, yes I created that blog. With the cooperating of Silvia with her post bashing me and Aida’s post bashing me, I will bring the blog down. But they all need to come down simultaneously. The purpose of the blog was to get her to see some of the outnesses of her life and to protect the public’s interest. If she doesn’t see that by now, I don’t think she ever will. I never meant the blog to be up for years.
Please understand, that I did what I did because I felt it was for the best.
Well, I hope I didn’t miss anything.
But I’m not worried, if I did, I’m sure the good members of ESMB will remind me.