Setting the Record Straight

[Misterfabian]

Once you're done with everyone else's questions, I'd like to know if it was you posting as Flash Gordon here on ESMB.

I'd also like to know what other aliases you've had while here.

Yes, I was Flash. Sorry Emma.

[sallydannce]

You know what? I am pissed! As a woman I am thoroughly offended and pissed off!

Watch the steam come out of my ears and I don't give a shit about being all nice and sweet!

You Misterfabian! - would do such grotty low-down things to WOMEN! Now I'm gathering you had a mother that gave birth to you and perhaps you have female relatives, perhaps you even are a woman yourself (which would make your offensive behaviour worse given you would know NOTHING about the sisterhood!) and you would disrespect women in the way you have!

God I'm pissed off! On so many levels.

Carry on without me - I'm gonna go throw cushions around to vent some of this bloody anger! Tory? You wanna share my cushions and throw a few around cos my God girl it would be my honour to do so!

I mean just fuck you Misterfabian! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE REAL WORLD IS ABOUT, NO IDEA ABOUT THE HUMAN CONDITION, NO IDEA ABOUT REAL EMOTIONS! How dare you play mind games with people who have suffered and fought for their sanity! How dare you! May you learn some genuine compassion. That is my only hope for you!

AND FUCK YOU OSA! REALLY YOU ARE SCUM!

Ban me for bad language Emma and being rude! I am just so livid here!

I've never thrown a tantrum online like this before...feels kinda interesting...

[Emma]

Actually, not many services to speak of. I was a public back in the late 90's. Mostly I purchased lots of books and thousands of dollars worth of tape lectures series and was self auditing myself.

If this is true - and I have absolutely no certainty that anything you are saying is even slightly the truth, you are more fucked up than I originally thought you were (from back in the ars days). See I thought Truth Seeker might have been a hard core, "gung ho" trained Sea Org OSA agent who was brainwashed/indoctrinated in an atmosphere of fear & degradation. I thought you might have been a geeky 2nd generation Scientologist kid who was struggling to "make it" in the eyes of Gavino Idda or whoever was running the Scieno trolls on ARS. I thought you might not have ever had the opportunity to experience real life outside the cult and might not have known any better. But it seems I was wrong.

Unless you've left out important details, you were never on staff. You were never Sea Org. You were hardly even audited in the church. You had absolutely no excuse for doing what you did. You were just a nasty piece of work who was making lives miserable for absolutely no reason except to make yourself feel useful. You got kicks out of harming others who were just trying to recover from a truly evil cult.

If this whole thing is just another troll then I guess you "got" us and one day, when it all comes out in the wash, I hope you realise how horrible your life has been & do everything you can to not only heal yourself but also help those who you have harmed.

[Free to shine]

I suggest you re-read the original post.

Your opening post does not include answers to these questions, which is why I asked them.

I suggest that you remove the nasty blog without waiting for others to do something. IF you are trying to rejoin the human race, remember that actions speak louder than words. I think you pride yourself on being a wordsmith, but that counts for little in this instance.

[Dulloldfart]

Actually, not many services to speak of. I was a public back in the late 90's. Mostly I purchased lots of books and thousands of dollars worth of tape lectures series and was self auditing myself.

Thank you. I have a suggestion: answer people's questions exactly. It tends to piss people off when you don't, and Lord knows, if what you are saying is true you do not want to piss anyone off even more. If you don't want to answer a particular question, it would help to say why not.

There is no obligation to do any of this, of course, but if you are trying to "come clean," I really suggest you do it.

Examples: I asked what services you did, when and where, and if you are on Kirsti's site under another name. You replied you haven't done "many" services. So you didn't actually answer any of my four questions but only gave a related answer to one of them (sorry, you did say late 90s too). Emma asked you if you had posted as Flash and what other aliases, and you replied yes to Flash but ignored the other question.

I was a Letter Reg at Saint Hill for three years. Part of the hat is to "answer people's questions exactly," and ever since I have tried to take care to do exactly that, double-checking that I have got everything. I ignored your question about my avatar because, well, you weren't worth talking to. I'll answer it now: I use that 1980s-era pic as my avatar because Scios who knew me at Saint Hill or ITO would recognise me from that pic, whereas they might not from a pic of the old fart I turned into.

Paul

[Veda]

Setting the Record Straight

I feel that it is time that I set the record straight regarding myself.

-snip-

It seems as though recently OSA has been hard at work again trying to convince people that I’m OSA. I’ve been and done my share of things in life but working for the Office of Special Affairs of the church of scientology was not one of them.

I realized recently that OSA was at their work again when I was innocently trying to build a friendship with Silvia Kusada when things went completely wrong. ARC breaks started to happen for no reason and things went downhill quickly. Now I realize that someone was 3rd parting me by telling her that I was OSA.

-snip-

Just the other day, you used an image taken from $cientology's propaganda data base in a post, so you must not be completely off put by all thing OSA.

Yet, now, OSA is after you again, even here on ESMB, it seems.

The "Truth Seeker" of several years ago was a sustained, carefully crafted, action meant to confuse people. It was also nasty, and sometimes illegal. Sorry, but there are things about this that don't add up.

In any event, why don't you tell us who the OSA "terminals" are, including the ones on ESMB.

And maybe you should stop using $cientology propaganda text and propaganda images in your posts.

[Misterfabian]

Thank you. I have a suggestion: answer people's questions exactly. It tends to piss people off when you don't, and Lord knows, if what you are saying is true you do not want to piss anyone off even more. If you don't want to answer a particular question, it would help to say why not.

There is no obligation to do any of this, of course, but if you are trying to "come clean," I really suggest you do it.

Examples: I asked what services you did, when and where, and if you are on Kirsti's site under another name. You replied you haven't done "many" services. So you didn't actually answer any of my four questions but only gave a related answer to one of them (sorry, you did say late 90s too). Emma asked you if you had posted as Flash and what other aliases, and you replied yes to Flash but ignored the other question.

I was a Letter Reg at Saint Hill for three years. Part of the hat is to "answer people's questions exactly," and ever since I have tried to take care to do exactly that, double-checking that I have got everything. I ignored your question about my avatar because, well, you weren't worth talking to. I'll answer it now: I use that 1980s-era pic as my avatar because Scios who knew me at Saint Hill or ITO would recognise me from that pic, whereas they might not from a pic of the old fart I turned into.

Paul

Paul, What makes you think that I have to answer any of your questions?

If I answer any of your questions, it's a courtesy from me to you.

It's not something that I have to do. I hope you understand. It's something that I chose to do, not something that I have to do.

[shanic89]

Have I missed something I thought Tim Higgs was an alias for Niel Woods.

[Misterfabian]

If this is true - and I have absolutely no certainty that anything you are saying is even slightly the truth, you are more fucked up than I originally thought you were (from back in the ars days). See I thought Truth Seeker might have been a hard core, "gung ho" trained Sea Org OSA agent who was brainwashed/indoctrinated in an atmosphere of fear & degradation. I thought you might have been a geeky 2nd generation Scientologist kid who was struggling to "make it" in the eyes of Gavino Idda or whoever was running the Scieno trolls on ARS. I thought you might not have ever had the opportunity to experience real life outside the cult and might not have known any better. But it seems I was wrong.

Unless you've left out important details, you were never on staff. You were never Sea Org. You were hardly even audited in the church. You had absolutely no excuse for doing what you did. You were just a nasty piece of work who was making lives miserable for absolutely no reason except to make yourself feel useful. You got kicks out of harming others who were just trying to recover from a truly evil cult.

If this whole thing is just another troll then I guess you "got" us and one day, when it all comes out in the wash, I hope you realise how horrible your life has been & do everything you can to not only heal yourself but also help those who you have harmed.

Actually, I was a very dedicated Scientologist.

Do you remember when I wrote in the above post that when I was a teenage I went through some dark days?

Well, it was processing myself that helped me to get out of that. When a person suffers as long and hard as I did and then some technology helps you get free from that you get very dedicated to that technology.

Back in the ARS days, my anger was mainly directed at the church of Scientology. If someone innocent got nicked by me is was because I concluded that they were working for the church of scientology based on their OSA like behavior.

[Misterfabian]

Have I missed something I thought Tim Higgs was an alias for Niel Woods.

We are two different people. Sorry.