You know what? I am pissed! As a woman I am thoroughly offended and pissed off!
Watch the steam come out of my ears and I don't give a shit about being all nice and sweet!
You Misterfabian! - would do such grotty low-down things to WOMEN! Now I'm gathering you had a mother that gave birth to you and perhaps you have female relatives, perhaps you even are a woman yourself (which would make your offensive behaviour worse given you would know NOTHING about the sisterhood!) and you would disrespect women in the way you have!
God I'm pissed off! On so many levels.
Carry on without me - I'm gonna go throw cushions around to vent some of this bloody anger! Tory? You wanna share my cushions and throw a few around cos my God girl it would be my honour to do so!
I mean just fuck you Misterfabian! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE REAL WORLD IS ABOUT, NO IDEA ABOUT THE HUMAN CONDITION, NO IDEA ABOUT REAL EMOTIONS! How dare you play mind games with people who have suffered and fought for their sanity! How dare you! May you learn some genuine compassion. That is my only hope for you!
AND FUCK YOU OSA! REALLY YOU ARE SCUM!
Ban me for bad language Emma and being rude! I am just so livid here!
I've never thrown a tantrum online like this before...feels kinda interesting...
Unless you've left out important details, you were never on staff. You were never Sea Org. You were hardly even audited in the church. You had absolutely no excuse for doing what you did. You were just a nasty piece of work who was making lives miserable for absolutely no reason except to make yourself feel useful. You got kicks out of harming others who were just trying to recover from a truly evil cult.
If this whole thing is just another troll then I guess you "got" us and one day, when it all comes out in the wash, I hope you realise how horrible your life has been & do everything you can to not only heal yourself but also help those who you have harmed.
Better a Has-been than a Never-was. But better a Never-was than a Never-tried-to-be. - Anonymous.
I suggest that you remove the nasty blog without waiting for others to do something. IF you are trying to rejoin the human race, remember that actions speak louder than words. I think you pride yourself on being a wordsmith, but that counts for little in this instance.
Love is stronger than mind control. Steve Hassan.
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There is no obligation to do any of this, of course, but if you are trying to "come clean," I really suggest you do it.
Examples: I asked what services you did, when and where, and if you are on Kirsti's site under another name. You replied you haven't done "many" services. So you didn't actually answer any of my four questions but only gave a related answer to one of them (sorry, you did say late 90s too). Emma asked you if you had posted as Flash and what other aliases, and you replied yes to Flash but ignored the other question.
I was a Letter Reg at Saint Hill for three years. Part of the hat is to "answer people's questions exactly," and ever since I have tried to take care to do exactly that, double-checking that I have got everything. I ignored your question about my avatar because, well, you weren't worth talking to. I'll answer it now: I use that 1980s-era pic as my avatar because Scios who knew me at Saint Hill or ITO would recognise me from that pic, whereas they might not from a pic of the old fart I turned into.
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Yet, now, OSA is after you again, even here on ESMB, it seems.
The "Truth Seeker" of several years ago was a sustained, carefully crafted, action meant to confuse people. It was also nasty, and sometimes illegal. Sorry, but there are things about this that don't add up.
In any event, why don't you tell us who the OSA "terminals" are, including the ones on ESMB.
And maybe you should stop using $cientology propaganda text and propaganda images in your posts.
If I answer any of your questions, it's a courtesy from me to you.
It's not something that I have to do. I hope you understand. It's something that I chose to do, not something that I have to do.
Have I missed something I thought Tim Higgs was an alias for Niel Woods.
Do you remember when I wrote in the above post that when I was a teenage I went through some dark days?
Well, it was processing myself that helped me to get out of that. When a person suffers as long and hard as I did and then some technology helps you get free from that you get very dedicated to that technology.
Back in the ARS days, my anger was mainly directed at the church of Scientology. If someone innocent got nicked by me is was because I concluded that they were working for the church of scientology based on their OSA like behavior.