About this "desperate hope to say the right words, think the right thoughts" . . .
I was having dinner with 6 or 7 Scientologists on Thanksgiving in about 2000. All were OT III or above, and most had done some of the L's. Two were on OT VII. They had been around awhile. It was an energetic and lively affair, with lots of animated discussion. There hadn't been that much talk about Scientology.
At some point I mentioned, "hey, did you see the new definition of the
second dynamic in the ethics book?" I gave a little explanation about how exactly this re-definition as "creativity" was entirely absurd, and how it did not and could not fit in with all the many other extant definitions.
I knew that two of the folks there
agreed because I had casually discussed it with them previously. What happened? The room went totally quiet.
You could see the chaos behind the eyes of a few, as they seemed to mentally work overtime to reconcile this "data" with what they saw as their "proper stance" on Scientology and management. It was scary (to me), because I had too often seen these "high-confront" people get involved with all sorts of mental gymnastics when faced with something that didn't quite fit in with
acceptable behavior and the
Scn party-line.
A few seemed to SQUIRM. A few of them gave really typical "avoidance" answers, based on their obvious previous brain-washing, such as 1) "RTC safeguards the
purity of the tech so whatever is released MUST be accurate and correct", 2) "you shouldn't be saying things like that", and 3) "you should report it on proper channels and let management sort it out".
The
fixed ideas in the room were palpable! They
refused to look at the possibility or the actual facts, because they
already KNEW that such an alteration could never occur!
It was like watching a
broken record of deeply implanted behaviors play out - actually, I was already all-too-familiar with these many manifestations of deep behavioral control caused by a combination of 1) an over-indoctrination into Scientology "data", and 2) too close of an affiliation with the severe control of the Scientology organization.
I was saddened that these people who claimed to "practice personal integrity", and who "had such a hard-fixed glare of confront" could
not face a simple example of a REAL alteration of LRH data (note: the altered definition of the 2D was changed back a few years ago, or so I have been told). Of course, they would not go anywhere even NEAR the idea that this alteration might be caused by "those in power" (management).
The responses and reactions included a total refusal to discuss anything, deflections and dub-in (crazy assumptions) such as "that could NEVER happen with RTC in charge", and attacks on me - "you should NOT say such things, you could upset people, you are enturbulating me".
"You should go to Qual and sort out your confusions". Yeah, right, like I am going to PAY Flag to try to "adjust" me to think other than I already know to be true, so that I can conform to some crazy unspoken BUT real Scientology behavioral MOLD.
It was highly educational to watch such idiotoc displays of severe indoctrination play out as most refused to
even consider the notion that an alteration could exist in theit "church", and that it had been CAUSED by their "church".
None would LOOK at the "facts of the matter", or discuss the overall details of the LRH data. I was told by one, "that is verbal data, that is out-KSW, knock it off"!
Within a week there were two KRs writtten on me.
Such is life in Hubbard's Church of Endless Idiocy.
Also, ALL attending the dinner were called in and interviewed by the Flag MAA.
Yep, gotta keep the sheep in line . . . . . .