As my therapist put it to me: "These dreams are a normal reaction to some extremely stressful experiences."
"Your Freezone stinks."
- Steve Hall
"It is true that the term FZ includes many varients of Scn, and some may be inadequate. Or even wrong headed."
- Terril Park
Some very good advice here, I will say from a professional point of you, be yourself and relax, learn how to deal with your new life and don't worry!
When I left in 1990 I did not have anyone to turn or had any sort of professional advice. However I had the support of family and I know if you speak to your family honestly they will help.
The longer you are away the easy it becomes, I know it will never go away for anyone but if you do the basic things such as writing a cheque or sleeping in etc.. You will find how easy normal life it becomes; or someone else has said go to the country for a walk. You have supportive people here.
But foremost, donít bottle it up speak to someone let it out. Be it your girlfriend, counsellor or someone here who you trust.
You have people have who can help.
It does get easier
Both my husband and a close friend of mine have done some lucid dreaming. They told me it takes practice but that it really can work.
Thank you for sharing your experience of nightmares. It is a normal response to trauma. I've been out for 18 years & I don't think I've had any for a little while now, well not recently anyway. But I had 2 recurring nightmares for years. In one I was running through a town, being chased by 2 S.O members - I run into a shopping mall & start running up an escalator that's going down! Consequently the s.o members catch up with me. In the other nightmare I dream that I'm back in the Sea Org, wearing the uniform & everything & I'm thinking to myself 'how did I let this happen? How could I let myself be back in the Sea Org?!!' and I'm so angry with myself.
I would also recommend Person-Centred counselling which is a gentle approach to counselling & the counsellor will take your lead. It's very respectful, empathic & non-judgemental. It's helped me enormously. Good luck & take care xxx