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    I left Scientology as a staff member about a year ago, and I still have weekly nightmares about being back on staff. Sometimes they are about things I experienced while on staff, and sometimes I find myself back on staff knowing that I had once left. I generally feel a lot of anxiety in these dreams, I start to freak out and cry because I know that my life is over, and I wonder how could I ever be back here again. I probably have 1-3 nightmares a week that revolve around being on staff. I wish I could get these out of my head.
    I had the same thing happen to me for years, from 1998 to 2005. They were feelings of being suffocated and trapped and I was always so relieved to wake up and realize I wasn't. They went away immediately after visiting and having a session with Mike Goldstein, of Idenics. I would imagine you will have the same relief. Good luck!

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    Quote Originally Posted by staffmember1234 View Post
    I left Scientology as a staff member about a year ago, and I still have weekly nightmares about being back on staff. Sometimes they are about things I experienced while on staff, and sometimes I find myself back on staff knowing that I had once left. I generally feel a lot of anxiety in these dreams, I start to freak out and cry because I know that my life is over, and I wonder how could I ever be back here again. I probably have 1-3 nightmares a week that revolve around being on staff. I wish I could get these out of my head.
    I really can relate to what you are going through. May I suggest that you post your story and start talking. Suppressed emotions; fear, anxiety and anger all show up somewhere - so let it rip and we are hear to listen! We can identify with what happened and that is the start - find someone to talk to. WE ARE HERE! WE ARE HERE! WE ARE HERE!

    WELCOME!

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    As my therapist put it to me: "These dreams are a normal reaction to some extremely stressful experiences."
    "Your Freezone stinks."

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    Some very good advice here, I will say from a professional point of you, be yourself and relax, learn how to deal with your new life and don't worry!

    When I left in 1990 I did not have anyone to turn or had any sort of professional advice. However I had the support of family and I know if you speak to your family honestly they will help.

    The longer you are away the easy it becomes, I know it will never go away for anyone but if you do the basic things such as writing a cheque or sleeping in etc.. You will find how easy normal life it becomes; or someone else has said go to the country for a walk. You have supportive people here.
    But foremost, don’t bottle it up speak to someone let it out. Be it your girlfriend, counsellor or someone here who you trust.

    You have people have who can help.

    It does get easier

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    Default Re: I still have nightmares, a year later.

    Quote Originally Posted by staffmember1234 View Post
    I left Scientology as a staff member about a year ago, and I still have weekly nightmares about being back on staff. Sometimes they are about things I experienced while on staff, and sometimes I find myself back on staff knowing that I had once left. I generally feel a lot of anxiety in these dreams, I start to freak out and cry because I know that my life is over, and I wonder how could I ever be back here again. I probably have 1-3 nightmares a week that revolve around being on staff. I wish I could get these out of my head.
    Lucid Dreaming may be helpful.
    http://www.world-of-lucid-dreaming.com/
    There are other methods out there besides Scn and Dianetics,you know.

    www.claireswazey.com

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    Quote Originally Posted by Claire Swazey View Post
    Lucid Dreaming may be helpful.
    http://www.world-of-lucid-dreaming.com/
    That would be great! It would be cool to gain full control over one of the dreams and start pumping round after round into colleagues and coworkers Fight Club style, or I could just get some extra confidence and tell everyone to get bent ;) Whatever works!

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    Both my husband and a close friend of mine have done some lucid dreaming. They told me it takes practice but that it really can work.
    There are other methods out there besides Scn and Dianetics,you know.

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    Thank you for sharing your experience of nightmares. It is a normal response to trauma. I've been out for 18 years & I don't think I've had any for a little while now, well not recently anyway. But I had 2 recurring nightmares for years. In one I was running through a town, being chased by 2 S.O members - I run into a shopping mall & start running up an escalator that's going down! Consequently the s.o members catch up with me. In the other nightmare I dream that I'm back in the Sea Org, wearing the uniform & everything & I'm thinking to myself 'how did I let this happen? How could I let myself be back in the Sea Org?!!' and I'm so angry with myself.

    I would also recommend Person-Centred counselling which is a gentle approach to counselling & the counsellor will take your lead. It's very respectful, empathic & non-judgemental. It's helped me enormously. Good luck & take care xxx

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    Quote Originally Posted by poppy View Post
    But I had 2 recurring nightmares for years. In one I was running through a town, being chased by 2 S.O members...
    Do these nightmares end fairly quickly when they happen? You snap out of them quickly?

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    Quote Originally Posted by RBMM View Post
    Do these nightmares end fairly quickly when they happen? You snap out of them quickly?
    Yes - and I usually wake up abit panicked but relieved its not real but actually that panicky feeling lingers for a bit. Haven't had any for ages though - I've managed to get rid of my anxiety (mostly) but it hasn't been easy.

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