Sometimes, though, I just didn’t want to burn through all my expensive auditing hours running correction lists. My “solution” then was to simply “look” in my mind or wherever for what was really bothering me at that moment. This is all while the auditor was running through the correction list items. Once I found my item by myself, I didn’t hesitate to kindly interrupt the auditor and just tell him what it was. I could do this because I had run through some of those correction lists so many times previously that it was practically committed to memory. Many times the item I originated read on the meter when I voiced it so we would then take it up in whatever way the tech said we needed to, and in short order I would be F/N’ing and VGI’s. I mention this because that self-determined decision to “look” at what was real and true for me was responsible for some of my quickest gains in Scientology. I also took a "win" on saving myself some hours instead of having to run through long correction lists! Not doing my own self-determined “looking” but instead being a “good PC” by following the rote directions based on LRH’s references did not always do this for me. As I would later discover, this type of “effective looking” was the key to my success with Idenics.
During my Bridge progress, it took a lot of auditing intensives to blow enough charge to make some type of change in my life. I was doing what was programmed by the C/S,who got his/her data from LRH’s writing. But LRH wasn’t me. So how come he got to pick and choose what I should address? Evaluate much? With that gross outpoint noted, I can say that Dianetics Auditing was good in that it did come closer than other processes in addressing my items. But instead of dealing with the mocked-up beingness I was actually stuck in, it instead had me locate an incident I could“comfortably face”, then go earlier/similar to locate the earliest beginning of a chain of incidents. The other problem with going earlier/similar is that with each new incident located, I was probably switching from one way of being to another. We might have been on the same chain from incident to incident, but I was not being the same identity. Auditing incidents in this fashion would bleed off some charge. But it never fully handled any given viewpoint of mine that could be stuck and subsequently could not help me to resolve my true unwanted conditions.
Unlike Scientology, in Idenics I’ve discovered that it is not necessary that the client have a good memory in order to resolve their personal unwanted conditions. Nor is it necessary to specifically locate the actual beginning of the incident; No locating the exact time, place, form and event is necessary. In some of my sessions we did locate the beginning. In others, we did not. So what do you do if the client cannot locate its starting point? The simple truth is that whatever viewpoint or identity one has assumed in order to handle some confusion, regardless of when, why or how that situation started, if it’s stuck, the person is still dealing with it in the present time. As such, the solution simply involves having the client look at what is there now. If you are able to locate a condition’s origin, that’s good as it acts as a reference point. In that case, the client would then consider past events and answer questions generally from the past to aid in looking at the unwanted condition that exists right now. This is explained in much greater detail inChapter 15, “Time and Memory” in the book, Idenics: An Alternative to Therapy.
Also, whereas in Scientology we seemed to mainly focus on what happened to me, in Idenics, we addressed how I responded to that which happened. And what I got stuck with thereafter. Since the things that happened in the past are done and gone forever, we can’t change that, but we can change how we face the future. And if we can alleviate the automatic responses we’ve stuck ourselves with, then we can choose to respond however we wish to whatever life presents. I would say that Idenics has helped me to regain that free power of choice to a very marked degree. I’ll go into some of my big Idenics “wins” in a future post. But one thing I can say is it really put me back into a “doingness” of things that I really need or want to be doing. I don’t get hung up or stuck on needless worrying about things. Less thinking and more doing = more accomplished. And, I felt invigorated after my Idenics sessions and hugely keyed-out. I didn’t feel exhausted like I did after my Scientology sessions.
In Idenics, I got to originate what I wanted to address. And in addressing it, we did not have to run a whole chain of incidents. To use a Scientology phrase, in Idenics it was like I backed up three feet from the scene, then looked at it from the appropriate viewpoint. That’s all that was needed to resolve the entire condition in one fell swoop. Even now, that still seems pretty fantastic, especially having come from a Scientology background. But I’m coming around quite nicely to this new understanding of things. J
Finally, when I took a look at the differences between the two practices, I began to really see there was truly no need to waste time running one incident, then an earlier incident, then an even earlier incident,etc. I understand that over the years there were tech advances that made things move quicker. But still, Idenics’ speed compared to Scientology is like a bullet train compared to a snail. And I know that bullet train will actually get me to my destination.
What the hell do I care about all these incidents for anyway? They’re just things that happened to me. And in Dianetics, all I focused on was getting to those moments of pain and unconsciousness. That can take quite a bit of effort to get into each and every engram, spending lots of time going back to the beginning, and picking up additional data. Again, just to find out what happened. In ALL of my Idenics sessions, NONE of them had to do with a moment of pain or unconsciousness. I don’t know how it will be for you but that’s how it was for me. The point is, MY unwanted conditions did not require a strict adherence to someone else’s ideas of where my “aberrations” came from. Only I could know where they came from and through Idenics we found the right answer.
Lastly, I’d like to tell you some of my favorite things about receiving Idenics processing. As a comparison, to do Scientology auditing, you need to be well fed and well rested, and then once session starts there’s usually time needed to fly ruds. But with Idenics, we did this over the phone,while I was in the comfort of my home. I dressed however I wanted. I may not have even showered yet that morning. We didn’t check for my metab or sessionability (granted, I made sure I had eaten and was not exhausted) or fly ruds. But best of all, for several of my sessions, I was outside on my patio, smoking cigarettes and drinking my coffee while “taking a look” and answering questions. I love to smoke so have no plans to take this up as a “personal unwanted condition”. In fact, that’s one of my personal wanted conditions. But I digress… What was best of all was this fact of complete and total comfort and relaxation. It wasn’t like in Scientology where I was apprehensive about having to spend time flying ruds or coughing up whatever overt I had somehow committed in between sessions. This was something I really looked forward to because I knew it would get handled, and most likely, in one shot. But that was because I trusted myself to do my own effective looking. After the first session with Mike, I knew he knew what he was doing, so the rest was very, Very, VERY easy compared to an auditing process. With no reaching for this, that or the other correction list, there was just no fumbling around with all sorts of questions trying to find that elusive reading item like is done in Scientology.
So, I’m not telling you that you should start smoking to make your Idenics processing run that much smoother. But then again…