I've just recently joined this board and would like to offer a little about myself beyond my profile.
To keep it reasonably brief...I attested "Natural Clear" in the summer of 1980, which I now discover is considered a virtual "impossibilty"...however, at that moment, I experienced a release of charge...a total re-energisation of myself, some of which has persisted to the present day. Maybe it was just a "release-point"? If so, it was a tremendous one...the stuff of which "success-stories " are made. My earlier history in Scn was miserable and depressing; maybe attesting put me into ARC with the area and hence, the release of which I speak.
Did the "Purif" in autumn 1980, had wins and cogs on that, and promptly proceeded to the Student Hat, on which I was an "F/Ning student" throughout.
All of this was in the London Foundation at 68 Tottenham Ct. Rd. 01-580-3601 as it then was.
Had financial issues i.e., no money...in debt, (surprise!) and just had to get back to the small formality of earning some dosh.
In 1983, various issues in life persuaded me to go back on lines...was invited to do "OT Preps" at Saint Hill EG.
At the conclusion of this, I was "cordially invited" to pay in for OT1-3 and get started on same. However, I had reservations. Just didn't feel right..the "why" is perhaps for another discussion.
So...I expressed my feelings and these were not well-received; got carted-off to the MAA via a rather unpleasant interview with someone or other, and the upshot was that I was virtually bludgeoned into signing-up for the PTS/SP Detection R&H course.
I limped back, tail between legs to the London Foundation....I think I'd been labelled "DB", and eventually we managed to agree that there was no way I was going back on lines ( my choice, not theirs) and as a "way out", I agreed to use the money in my account to buy the "Philadelphia Doctorate Course"...a bunch of audio cassettes in those days.... rather than be doomed/damned forever....
Despite many 'phone calls from Ldn Foundation and SH...you know ?...never went back.
But still can't get the whole shebang out of my mind. Not that I'm a "tortured being" or anything but I still cling to the belief that there is much of value in Scientology, whatever its sins. In fact I know there is....but how to reconnect? Who can I trust? There seems to be much dissension even in the "Independent Field".
Just wanted to say all this to "de-mystify" myself; expect you've heard similar before....hope I haven't bored y'all [I]too[I] much.
In time, if I manage to settle-in here would be nice to hook-up with any old chums from no. 68 that might be around.
Thanks for reading....ARC M.