One of my last straws would have to be assigned to the completely batty, entirely off the wall, "findings" that a sea org unit dished out to me on a board of review. I'd requested a B of R to standardly investigate why I had had some out-tech run on me (which I believe contributed to spinning me in, an illness & subsequent freeloaders bill due to being a pile of sick shit). Loooong story but the finale was spectacularly nutty.
The board of review was requested by me. I NEVER heard ONE word from the CLO on it. I gave up trying to communicate to them. About a year later an old mate from the SO was in town - we talked - she went back to the CLO and checked into my request. She phoned me to say I'd had the B of R - months ago - and the findings were odd.
The findings included but were not limited to "discovering" I had withheld vital info about myself the entire time I had been in scientology (related to drugs I had taken) and this was why things had f***ed up with my auditing/my health, etc. The problem was this LIE about me had been addressed by various C/Ses over the years and I'd even had several related auditing actions on it. On the second DAY I was in scientology my full drug history had been documented! No secrets ever about my drug history. So much for looking in the folders and getting to the truth. No one spoke to me from the board team - might have been a good idea but hey when the elite get elite, they get elite.
This CLO B of R took incompetence, arrogance, stupidity & incompetence (hell did I say that already) to a new level. Their "findings" categorised me as a person to ignore - a type of PTS who should be ignored - big trouble source person.
Like a puppet in a cult, I then attempted to get this sea org issued ethics order reversed which eventually involved me travelling to the nearest AO. I did get the ethics order revoked. Then.. shit can't be bothered with the rest of the story. Much too convoluted to convey in less than eight pages.
I knew then that things were horribly off-the-wall in scientology from the top to the bottom. I had international persons in the loop on this cycle - a protective back-up, or so I thought. They were no help either. I knew there was no caring - the casual insincerity, the hard focus on money - it all started to paint a very dark picture. There were too many out-points to count. After this I started pulling back and well, here I am.