I am not currently practicing Knowledgism or Scientology. I have a 30 year history studying Scientology and applying it. I have read only a couple of books on Knowledgism. Part of my unraveling since leaving the church has been revisiting my products as an auditor and FSM. As many of you know I helped one of my selectees get a substantial repayment from Flag. This seemed only fair since I had convinced her to give her money to Flag in the first place. It felt good to sort of unravel her as part of my own healing.
Anyway, my boyfriend, life partner, baby daddy has been one of my pet projects for years. He and I have an interesting history as most couples do. I also have audited him and regged him and assisted him in life and in getting up the bridge. Actually I have assisted him in getting up the bridge (up to OT 5), but not really in life. This has been a BIG problem for both of us for lotta some years. Seems the more I help him by applying the so called correct technology, the less able to handle life he becomes. For long time I went back and forth between justifying the churches shortcomings and justifying his shortcomings. Mostly I couldn't even imagine what might be wrong with me that I was so ineffective. Well you get the picture.
He's been reading Alan's books and listening to Alan's lectures. He is really enjoying it. That is nice. However, the big difference is....... I don't even know how to tell you. It's translating into life. It's just subtle right now. He threw things out. (that was major for me - he's never done that before) He is more "present". We both are hesitant to trust or believe anything, but are willing to look. Reading the books Alan wrote has taken ALL the mystery off the OT levels. That is the difference. Even after doing the OT levels they were shrouded in mystery. (as a control mechanism to keep you reaching) In Knolwedgism the whole mind f*#@ of OT becomes very understandable and repairable. It won't take thirty years and 300k to fix us. We are on our way. I am free to take what I want from Knowledgism with no ongoing contract. This is very cool.