You raise a good point actually. For years I was careful of what I posted on these personal matters, I didn't want OSA or anyone to "have a win" at causing pain and ticking off programs. I was also working to protect my parents from further stress and attempts to stop Dad speaking to me ... he really, really appreciated our connection in those awful final days. And then after they passed I have more freedom to speak and I really don't care what they think and if they get a "win" then so be it. Sick and evil it is, so that's their problem. I actually hope they do print off my posts to show my rellies, because it all 'is what it is'. By showing the truth of the matter we also show our humanity, our freedom to speak and experience the good and the bad without fear of judgement. I am not in constant pain or sitting in a dark room sobbing or anything else they hope and expect. I have a good life with love and laughter ... it's just that when the reminders of the losses caused by scientology come into focus then I have some sad times too. Merry Christmas to you!