I just have a bit to say about my continuing evolution. As most of you know I just got back from the land of Exes otherwise known as Texas. It was an amazing journey. ImOut and her hubby took very good care of me. Their house is really a home. It's very cozy and safe and well lived in while still being orderly and lovely to look at with many comfy spaces to sit or lounge. I enjoyed that very much. I enjoyed the freedom of coexisting with people I care about and respect even though I have seen the goldenrod. I met a few other SPs and they were charming in the extreme. They asked that I fill them in on what I know about happenings in the church. I was happy to oblige. I met Tookmeawhile. He also was just fantastic. I found out more of his story and am very impressed with his bravery and resolve. His story is one that is heart wrenching and sheds some light on the cruelty and confusion of the church. I also met Alan. He was just completely Alan. The amazing thing about meeting Alan and spending time with him is he seemed so pleased to be with us. I mean he just seemed to really enjoy our company. He and his staff are all so fun to be with. I can hang out with squirrels and feel completely comfortable. I fit right in. The ranch is an amazing space. tExas is just amazing wide open space. You can just look and reach with your perception further than I have had the opportunity to anywhere else. I also read some of Alan's books, and the ones I got are just what I needed. They help unravel some of the mysteries of Scientology. There have been unanswered questions for me. Since leaving last November it has been easier for me to just "throw the baby out with the bathwater" than to try to sort out any remnants of spiritual truth. But there is no denying that while in Scientology and especially in the first decade or so something did happen. Something was attained and if it only be brainwashing it still needs to be looked at and sifted through. So I am looking. It is another new freedom of mine. I also went to visit my sister. (not in Texas) She didn't know that I am out. I wanted to tell her in person. It was wonderful. She didn't give me the "Oh, thank God you finally woke up" reaction. She just listened and nodded and said "I hope you don't feel like you wasted your life on Scientology, because I really believe that you did a lot of good". "You helped people and you really tried to do the best you can to help mankind. I really respect you for that and I understand that it went bad and didn't turn out the way you had hoped. Sometimes a good idea just runs it course and sometimes good people get used for bad purposes, but still accomplish some good. You did good and now it's time to move on and try something new." She was there for me. I'm going to be okay. I can still try to save the world. Or not. I can be the good twin or the evil twin. I may not have total freedom, but I sure feel liberated.