I recently met with a couple of exes and one of the questions that came up was, what was it that made you to finally leave the CofS? Personally speaking I was aware that the CofS was a cult from very early on, but it didn't seem to matter to me. I was still curious and I loved the tech. The moment I realised I had to leave (although I thought it could be done standardly) was when I was at the airport reading a novel by Terry Prattchet and when my flight was called, I started counting the pages on my novel as I would do every single day in study while on staff. At that moment I thought, "oops, I think I have overdone this game. There's no way they are having my mind." Things went downhill after that as when I told the ED I was leaving staff I became persona non grata overnight.