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Hi again, from Amy Shrack

Discussion in 'New Member Introductions' started by Shizzrack, Aug 14, 2015.

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  1. Shizzrack

    Shizzrack zef cat


    I posted here a couple years ago under "Shrack", but can't get my password 'cause it was an old email address. I finally just made a new account. Yay.

    I am Amy Shrack, and my parents were Tom and Carole Shrack, who have both passed away (Dad in 1990 and Mom in 2007).

    I knew growing up that my dad was in the SO for a time (I believe it was long before he met my mom) and I knew they worked hard to pay off his freeloader debt, but a couple months ago while going through a box of old papers I found a communication sent to my dad c/o the RPF, and I was kinda floored. I didn't know he had to suffer the horror of the RPF. I don't know how bad it was in the 70s compared to more recent years, or how long he was there, but it really made me want to cry when I saw that document.

    My dad's best friend from his childhood really feels my dad was struggling with the idea of leaving Scientology when he passed away. There were some signs. But of course he didn't want to leave me and my mom behind. My mom was pretty hardcore, in general (mostly in a good way) so I can imagine he wouldn't have believed she would exit the Scientology life/network/friends/purported spiritual freedom with him. If that's what he was thinking, he was probably right. An underlying heart condition made the decision for him, in any case.

    When my mom was diagnosed with cancer in 2005, I was way done with Scientology, but I sucked it up and drove her to PAC to get the help she wanted (nobody would C/S her for anything but assists, as it turned out). It took a lot for me to walk into the org with her as a (non-vocal) ex, but I did it, because I loved her.

    We were at PAC all the time from my earliest memories until Mom and I routed off the Pro Metering course (so early 80s through mid 90s), mostly at ASHO Day. My mom was also at AO and sometimes Flag for 7.

    I've been an ex starting about 1996, although I did a Purif at CC during a moment of weakness in 2003. Mom and I became very disillusioned when GAT came out, although she remained a staunch believer in the tech through her dying day. It's too bad I wasn't connected enough at the time to turn her on to the freezone.

    So those are my random thoughts for the evening by way of re-introduction.

    Cheers, glad to be back here to share stories and hopefully find old friends.

  2. Panda Termint

    Panda Termint Cabal Of One

    Thanks for posting this Amy. Welcome back. :welcome:
  3. SPsince83

    SPsince83 Gold Meritorious Patron

  4. Shizzrack

    Shizzrack zef cat

    P.S. I would love to get in touch with Tory/Magoo - I was good friends with her son back in the day... Tory, are you here?
  5. programmer_guy

    programmer_guy True Ex-Scientologist


    You could send a PM to her on her account on this message board.

    Also, Maybe you can try here:
  6. Shizzrack

    Shizzrack zef cat

    Re: u

    Done. Thanks for the advice!

  7. afaceinthecrowd

    afaceinthecrowd Gold Meritorious Patron

    Hi Amy. :wave:

    If your father was the Tom Shrack that was at FOLO WUS during the early-mid '70's then I did know him in passing. I recall him as a real fine feller and am so sorry to hear of his passing.

    I was Flag Crew and crossed paths with Tom during some Missions I did in PAC. His spouse at that time was named Kathy, IIRC.

    Some of the finest and most decent Folks I've ever known were RPF'd in the '70's and it was NOT a place or circumstance that they (or any SO Member) deserved to be in and treated in such a way.

    From the fleeting interaction I had with Tom 40 years ago or so I recall him as pleasant, thoughtful, kind and sincere.

    Must have missed your Posts your first time around on ESMB...So glad you came back around and are here with all of Us. :clap:

    Best Wishes,

  8. SanDiegoMember

    SanDiegoMember Howard Dickman

    I was on the RPF with Kathy Shrack as noted on our newsletter here -

    She and Doug Nopson became real close. Kathy was very driven, she was the quickest one to graduate the RPF. I wonder what ever happened to the two of them.

    Howard Dickman
  9. Lurker5

    Lurker5 Gold Meritorious Patron

    Hi :wave: and :welcome2: Amy - Welcome back :yes:. So sorry for your loss of parents. :rose: May both your parents RIP.

    And now you are FREE - completely free of scno/co$. :happydance: :clap:
  10. Shizzrack

    Shizzrack zef cat

    Hi Face, thanks! Yes, that was my dad! He was a really good guy, thanks for remembering him. :)

  11. Dean Blair

    Dean Blair Silver Meritorious Patron

    Welcome back Amy! You are in good company here at the ESMB. I am sorry to hear about your mom. My mom finished OT 5 and was regged for $40,000 to do her OT 6 and 7 at Flag. My sister escorted her there but they refused her service because they were afraid she might have a heart attack and die there. They sent her away but kept the $40,000. My mother did die several years later from a heart attack.

    I am looking forward to your future communications here.
  12. Shizzrack

    Shizzrack zef cat

    Here's me and my parents, about 1985, I'm guessing:)
  13. Enthetan

    Enthetan Master of Disaster

    I think you had to be a fine and decent person to be RPF'ed. Any actual bad person would be more likely to leave rather than be subjected to it.

    The RPF was where good and decent people were sent, to be broken so that they would follow insane and psychopathic orders, IMHO.
  14. Enthetan

    Enthetan Master of Disaster

    I was in PAC, on and off, in the 1980's. Your dad looks vaguely familiar. I don't think I met your mom,