…nor the second. You would think I learned my lesson the first time back in 1978. I was introduced to cos via a lady at a park in Ft. Lauderdale where I was running one Sunday afternoon. I took the personality test. I thought this was the greatest thing on earth. At 20 years old I was a basket case anyways. I had left my home town in North Carolina to find something that was missing in my life. But, I was also an emotional tumbleweed. I would listen and agree with anyone I met. So it wasn't to difficult to find myself as a staff member at the mission there. I got routed off a year later. I later moved back to NC. About two years later, I still couldn't stand my life so I actually called FLAG and told whoever answered the phone that I wanted to quit my life and join the s.o. What a big mistake. I got pulled into the Estates Org which took care of the FT. Harrison building, including housekeeping. I was to share a single room with 6 or 8 other men. The rooms were dank and full of mold. I cleaned rooms for almost a year. Sometimes 39 hours straight. I went from 175 pounds to under 120. I was a walking skeleton. In short, I decided to walk out. Didn't talk to anyone in the org, just decided to go. Long story short. That was around 1980 or 81. I don't even remember. So here it is 2019 and I am kicking myself for answering the phone last year when it happened to be someone at flag. We got to talking and I told them my experiences. Of course they put me on with a second person. Before I knew it I had paid for the basics. 25 some odd boxes of books. I was already badly in debt but they didn't care. And since then I have been paying dearly just to take these courses on line. Thousands of more dollars. So I have had enough. I am currently studying the ACCs. My big question is, where are all these Scientologists over the last 40 years since I first got involved. If expansion is as they say, how come I haven't met one scientologists out and about. Another thing I want to mention. A lady staff member from Saint Hill even called and tried to recruit me to take services over there. I actually took the bait and met her in DC at the "Ideal Org" there. Which raises the next question. Where was everyone? It was a Sunday!!! The big 7 story building was all but empty. It felt more like a mausoleum. It actually creeped me out. Lies upon lies? Why wasn't this place booming if scientology has expanded over the decades. This is a short version of my story. I just found this website a couple of days ago. I know now, at least for myself, that it's a scam. Scientology is a scam. Well, I am done. I'm just appalled at my self for three attempts to give them and it a chance. But, this has left me in a really dark place, emotionally. I am mad and angry. So I just wanted to put this out there without writing a book. Thank you. I am 62 years old and retired. I am not going to spend the rest of my life owing them. Which leads me to my final question... Where are all these so called Clears and OT's in everyday life?