Recently my thoughts were placed upon the scientology dead. I made a quick list of all the scientologists that I personally knew in some way, that are now dead. In just two minutes, my list had 19 people on it. All died way before their time, they did not die of old age. In fact, now that I think about it, I've never known a scientologist who simply died of old age. Three of them, who were New OT 8's, died of cancer not long after completing OT 8. None of them were people that I think, "God, I sure am glad that guy is dead." Maybe two or three of them, I would say, were really messed-up. But they were probably messed up by scientology in that being in scientology denied them access to true help. Anyway, not to ramble, I was thinking, you know, the people on my list, most of them, were really, really good people. Now some of us are fortunate enough to get out. But some really good people get stuck in there and can never get out. So many of the real jerks seem to flourish inside, people I want to feed to my German Shepherd, you all know the type. The callous, shark-eyed ones who dk how to spell the word humanitarian, aka the Un-Dead. I think many of the people who die in there, do so because they are genuinely good. And a genuinely good person who cannot reconcile nor escape the evil that is inherent within that organization, just gets sick and dies because they have no other way out. Anyway, I was just wondering if people here who knew scientologists who died, have a similar observation, that's all. I used to think that the scientology dead were just a statistic like any other sample of a population. But no, I now see a common thread and I wonder if others see it too. And I also thought we could honor the dead by remembering them and sending them positive wishes, and also be thankful that we, are alive and well.