Badass
Patron with Honors
Hi, I´ve been lurking here for a couple of months, and this furum seems very valuable to me:
1 Lots and lots of information
2 Breaking news
3 Posters who are not afraid to see and communicate.
4 Real freedom to communicate ( Absolutely unattainable in the church...)
5 Stories from the old days
6 Lots of strange entities posting here...(This is the most important factor for me, being as I am one very strange entity myself...)
In short this is better than CNN and Cartoon Network alltogether !
So I decided to become a member ! ( Tired of being a Badass....If you know what I mean....) :wink2:
Enough posing as a wiseass... so this is my dumb story
In 1979 discovered Scn trough a friend, I was depressed and suicidal, read Book one, did the comm course, got life repair (Beautiful, in the first process (finding the auditor....can you believe it ?) I went ext, and from then on aware of my spiritual condition, that probably was the best win of all my auditing) and now my life had a new meaning, my goal of helping others rehabbed, and I decided this was the mountain I wanted to climb, so I signed a 5 year staff contract, and went to Flag one year for auditor training....
Now my dream was to become a Sea Org, but of course, to become such a noble being first I would have to become an OT....at the very least.
From 1980 to 1984 I was HGC Auditor, and at the end I was Clear, Grad IV and DCSI Auditor and C/S.
At the end of my contract I left, and would disconnect almost completely from Scientology for the next 25 years-
Why I left ?.......Well, something was wrong somewhere, and at that time of course I was placing most of the blame in myself, but mostly at the bottom of it was this big ARCX : Arround 1983 I started to feel "Command intention", the new administration was making itself known, and now I felt like I had an
asshole (DM) on my back with a whip making sure that I "climbed the mountain", it was not my goal anymore, my self-determinism was taken out, and then I just could not stay there.
My routing out then was not such a big problem as it seems to be now, just a couple of confessionals, mest work and ethics handling for a pair of weeks, and then a final and quite humiliating interview with an ape from the sea org which spent half an hour yelling at me, and made me loose all the respect I had for the Sea Org, how could such a pathetic asshole be a member of the finest and most noble OT organization of the planet ? ( Now I know, thanks to the ESMB). That was my final ARCX.
Those two factors, feeling "Command Intention", and meeting a "member of the Sea Org", actually were a blessing for me, because having not had them I would probably had spent those next 25 years "chasing my slave tail", inside Scn and wouldn´t become aware of, nor accept, the facts I am finding here in the ESMB.
Emma, my love and admiration to you, and of course, to all the Strange Beings, SP´S, DB´S, Monsters, Beautiful and Breasty Girls, Ethics Particles, et all, populating this forum. Praised be the Lord, I havent found one yet claiming to be normal or something like that.....
Now, if you excuse me, I will dedicate myself to devour all those threads here....
1 Lots and lots of information
2 Breaking news
3 Posters who are not afraid to see and communicate.
4 Real freedom to communicate ( Absolutely unattainable in the church...)
5 Stories from the old days
6 Lots of strange entities posting here...(This is the most important factor for me, being as I am one very strange entity myself...)
In short this is better than CNN and Cartoon Network alltogether !
So I decided to become a member ! ( Tired of being a Badass....If you know what I mean....) :wink2:
Enough posing as a wiseass... so this is my dumb story
In 1979 discovered Scn trough a friend, I was depressed and suicidal, read Book one, did the comm course, got life repair (Beautiful, in the first process (finding the auditor....can you believe it ?) I went ext, and from then on aware of my spiritual condition, that probably was the best win of all my auditing) and now my life had a new meaning, my goal of helping others rehabbed, and I decided this was the mountain I wanted to climb, so I signed a 5 year staff contract, and went to Flag one year for auditor training....
Now my dream was to become a Sea Org, but of course, to become such a noble being first I would have to become an OT....at the very least.
From 1980 to 1984 I was HGC Auditor, and at the end I was Clear, Grad IV and DCSI Auditor and C/S.
At the end of my contract I left, and would disconnect almost completely from Scientology for the next 25 years-
Why I left ?.......Well, something was wrong somewhere, and at that time of course I was placing most of the blame in myself, but mostly at the bottom of it was this big ARCX : Arround 1983 I started to feel "Command intention", the new administration was making itself known, and now I felt like I had an
asshole (DM) on my back with a whip making sure that I "climbed the mountain", it was not my goal anymore, my self-determinism was taken out, and then I just could not stay there.
My routing out then was not such a big problem as it seems to be now, just a couple of confessionals, mest work and ethics handling for a pair of weeks, and then a final and quite humiliating interview with an ape from the sea org which spent half an hour yelling at me, and made me loose all the respect I had for the Sea Org, how could such a pathetic asshole be a member of the finest and most noble OT organization of the planet ? ( Now I know, thanks to the ESMB). That was my final ARCX.
Those two factors, feeling "Command Intention", and meeting a "member of the Sea Org", actually were a blessing for me, because having not had them I would probably had spent those next 25 years "chasing my slave tail", inside Scn and wouldn´t become aware of, nor accept, the facts I am finding here in the ESMB.
Emma, my love and admiration to you, and of course, to all the Strange Beings, SP´S, DB´S, Monsters, Beautiful and Breasty Girls, Ethics Particles, et all, populating this forum. Praised be the Lord, I havent found one yet claiming to be normal or something like that.....
Now, if you excuse me, I will dedicate myself to devour all those threads here....
