Thank you Mr. Nobody. I guess normal is a relative term. I want to be able to think and not have every Scio term fly through my head judging what is going on around me. It is frustrating!!!
BeenLiedTo
I'm a never-in, so some of the other board members may have many better ideas, but here's what I'd suggest: Whenever a Scio word or thought pops up in your mind, try to rephrase it in standard English words and meanings.
Then take a good look at that now rephrased thought and see how it does affect your current, every-day life. If you find nothing of value within that thought, it can safely be dismissed - at least for now.
Oh, and don't allow any frustrations to demotivate you. To a certain extent, frustrations are a normal (there's that word again) part of everybody's everyday life.
I think it's a great idea to get all that cult-installed thinking out of your mind, but that's certainly not a one-weekend-job - many ESMBers are probably able to testify to that.
So don't let your frustrations put you off, just keep on living a good life as happily as possible. After a while, you'll see the frustrations (and the cult-think as well) become less and less important and bothersome.
, MrN
ps:
If you are experiencing a "hole" in your life after leaving the cult, fill it up with some sort of hobby (or your profession), something you're interested in and something you love doing. No matter what that hobby or profession is, you will certainly find heaps of forums with heaps of people to discuss it with and some people may even become good friends, later on.