Thanks La La Lou Lou, I guess what I'm dreading is having the task of confronting and explaining the abuses without coming off like a monster. I mean when I discovered the prolific forced abortions and saw those poor girls talking online I felt like crying,throwing up and curling up in a fetal ball at the same time . And I feel others will find this and many other things inexcusable by any standard of human decency. So I feel people won't understand that I for decades censored myself to NEVER see or trust mainstream media and was clueless about this abuse , and while I saw local isolated incidents I thought these were the exception and not the tip of the abhorrent iceberg !
I mean our group ( scientology ) has had truly inhuman crimes to account for and still does them daily so how can we get past that with people so they understand we were fooled into helping psychopathic criminals (dm and lrh)?
Hey the more I think about it the more I think respecting people's barriers and learning when it's okay to open up or encourage them can be a key in developing normal human social skills; I mean to show that I care but don't want to push it ,try too hard or always bring up things people are uncomfortable with but not back away so much as to appear indifferent or uncaring.
MB, I'm a never in so take what I have to say with that in mind. Even being married to a long time scn and seeing what it's done to our family, I can't possibly understand what it's like from your point of view. I did, however, grow up in a christian cult. Nothing even close to scn but with the same types of mind control techniques. I've also been involved in several other cultish groups over the years - mostly in my teens and 20's when I had more time to be passionate about thinking someone had all the answers to saving the world and I wanted to be part of it.
And that's the thing I think about when I read your posts here. Everyone I've met who's either in scn or was at one time and is now out, really believed they were following a path that would bring good to the world. That's a noble and admirable goal. I hope you're proud of being the sort of person who would not only have that kind of goal but who would put your money where your mouth is and jump right in with both feet to make it happen. It takes guts to do that.
If I can digress for a minute.... There's some fascinating research about women who become involved with men who are toxic (i.e. abusive, alcoholic, addicts, unable to hold a job, etc). The personality traits that put women at highest risk for these types of relationships are: intelligence, compassion, empathy, responsibility, and more. In short, the traits that make women most vulnerable to being taken in by disordered men are the very traits we hope our daughters have in abundance. Good, caring, strong, intelligent women.
http://www.sott.net/article/228663-The-Unexamined-Victim-Women-Who-Love-Psychopaths
I often wonder if there's been a study of personality traits that make us most vulnerable to being taken in by cultish scam artists such as hubbard. And if there is, I wonder how closely it would mirror the personality traits of these women? Caring, responsible, empathetic..... and with a strong drive to make a difference in the world.
Most women, when they finally break free of these relationship patterns, feel similar shame. They feel as if it's their fault they were duped. Or dropped. Or beaten. Or..... fill in the blank. If only they'd been smarter, prettier, younger, more caring, less caring, younger, older, etc. the relationship would have worked. It often takes many many years for them to come to terms with the fact that he was an assh*** and they fell for it. Giving up the dream and admitting it was never as wonderful as they wanted it to be feels shameful. It's hard, hard, healing work and most want to do it in private -- and maybe never tell anyone how bad it really was. There's a lot of stigma in being abused or scammed.
Some women, when they finally break free, and who have the support system and information to come to terms with what happened to them, want to be part of the crusade to educate other women before the same thing happens to them. They take their stories public pointing out what they could have done differently, where they betrayed their own values, and how they found their way back to safety and sanity.
Neither path is better than the other. And, perhaps both are necessary. If everyone stayed silent evolution and growth would be much slower. If everyone was out crusading it might be too noisy for anyone to hear a thing (although it might be fun to see, hmmm?).
So, my thought of the day for you is this - which is most healing for you? What makes your soul feel whole and safe again? Which allows you to reclaim your integrity and inner peace? Where does your heart bid you go?
Because, in the end, the life you are responsible for is your own. Take care of you, explore your deepest values, define your boundaries and create compassionate safeguards for yourself. I suspect when you do that you'll know how much to share and in what situations.
Best,
Blanky