Wisened One
Crusader
Free To Shine:
Thank you for your wonderful, kind words and they've helped, A LOT! And Yes, no longer being part of such a 'dedicated, purposeful group' is also very lonely. Ever since,have been very 'anti-group'. Not only that: it's harder to be able to 'relax' and make non-scn friends, too. Our thought processes were SO specific and so ingrained with the 'entheta' and 'case' of all that weren't staff or at least active Public, that we had to work hard to get off our 'self-made pedestals (sp) and start loving and being more accepting of people for who they are, again.
I've managed to sift through nearly ALL the 'regular, this lifetime,while-in-this-body concepts, data'.... and have made peace with, replaced, found other authors, mixed it in with several different beliefs, etc...THOSE things, I'm good on for the most part.
WHAT I'm STILL having some trouble with (and only here and there when it hits me just so..)
Is the stuff dealing with What you do when you die, where you go when you die, what to NOW believe happens after death. ARE there any 'evil implants' to be steering clear of during death/after death? (I say no, yet sometimes....)
IF I still did believe in reincanation...now HOW do I enter a new body? (I do NOT want to even be reminded of LRH's junk on it...it's so ingrained, I'm trying to get rid of it out or at least 'figure' out what's what on it all, you know?
I guess my bottom line I've reached so far in all the 'heavier' concepts (like death, reincarnation,etc) is that ALL that matters, is what I deep down in my gut believe,matters. Period.
Now ONE little thing still bugs the snit outta me: Since the 'personal advanced power and OT' thing is bogus....is there NO 'advanced' state I can reach for, now?
(I mean, LRH's sounded SO 'exact' and something to go strive for with no questions regarding it, you know?)...
But NOW WHAT? Sad to say, I'll never believe in Scientology (as it is..especially their advanced stuff) again. Nobody has EVER 'shown me the OT'.
I guess I'll just have to slowly adjust to this fact.
Many other books, authors, concepts btw have been making a HUGE difference in my and Spouse's lives, so we are good.
I just have some holes still to fill regarding if there IS ANY OT to ever be attained, now? (even if it's a different definition, and thru different (or mixing) paths, etc?).
Thanks,
Wisened One.
Thank you for your wonderful, kind words and they've helped, A LOT! And Yes, no longer being part of such a 'dedicated, purposeful group' is also very lonely. Ever since,have been very 'anti-group'. Not only that: it's harder to be able to 'relax' and make non-scn friends, too. Our thought processes were SO specific and so ingrained with the 'entheta' and 'case' of all that weren't staff or at least active Public, that we had to work hard to get off our 'self-made pedestals (sp) and start loving and being more accepting of people for who they are, again.
I've managed to sift through nearly ALL the 'regular, this lifetime,while-in-this-body concepts, data'.... and have made peace with, replaced, found other authors, mixed it in with several different beliefs, etc...THOSE things, I'm good on for the most part.
WHAT I'm STILL having some trouble with (and only here and there when it hits me just so..)
Is the stuff dealing with What you do when you die, where you go when you die, what to NOW believe happens after death. ARE there any 'evil implants' to be steering clear of during death/after death? (I say no, yet sometimes....)
IF I still did believe in reincanation...now HOW do I enter a new body? (I do NOT want to even be reminded of LRH's junk on it...it's so ingrained, I'm trying to get rid of it out or at least 'figure' out what's what on it all, you know?
I guess my bottom line I've reached so far in all the 'heavier' concepts (like death, reincarnation,etc) is that ALL that matters, is what I deep down in my gut believe,matters. Period.
Now ONE little thing still bugs the snit outta me: Since the 'personal advanced power and OT' thing is bogus....is there NO 'advanced' state I can reach for, now?
(I mean, LRH's sounded SO 'exact' and something to go strive for with no questions regarding it, you know?)...
But NOW WHAT? Sad to say, I'll never believe in Scientology (as it is..especially their advanced stuff) again. Nobody has EVER 'shown me the OT'.
I guess I'll just have to slowly adjust to this fact.
Many other books, authors, concepts btw have been making a HUGE difference in my and Spouse's lives, so we are good.
I just have some holes still to fill regarding if there IS ANY OT to ever be attained, now? (even if it's a different definition, and thru different (or mixing) paths, etc?).
Thanks,
Wisened One.
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