Thank you for your post Petey. I honestly don't know where I am at this point in relation to loved ones who are dying. A week ago I learnt that my younger sister has pancreatic and liver cancer. We don't know how this is going to pan out, but from all accounts she has not got long. I'm fearful of the end stages. I'm trying to keep on top of the stress. I shall be there for her and hope I can be of some use.
We are talking and can do easily about death and dying.
She is virtually pain free at the moment as she is on morphine and can have as much of it as she needs.
I have no concerns about the possibility of after life, and nor does she. It's the here and now and however long she is with us that weighs on me. How I can ease things for her and for her daughter and grandchildren.
It has put a new perspective on my own recent drama with cancer. That drama is over.
I do.
This was the most beautiful and precious thing about working with the elderly. It is not just your honesty, Petey, but theirs. There are no secrets, no false pretenses. It is nice when someone can become old enough and wise enough to reach that higher state, but I think even those who die more suddenly often reach that state. We hear of "near death" situations where one's entire life flashes in an instant. I think many that die suddenly can also have that moment where all becomes clear and all is complete for them - no secrets, and hopefully, all is also peaceful and there is certainty of a better place.
I have really been thinking about life and death, lately. On August 14th I celebrated my 78th birthday, I have lived longer than anyone in my family. In the past year I have had lung cancer and a stroke. my biggest loss was the sight in my right eye. My other eye has very poor vision and I am using a magnifying glass to do any reading, The doctors say I will not get my vision back, but you know me...I believe in miracles.
Living in Senor Housing you experience death of friends often. Most of the people who have died were welcoming it. Pain and loss of abilities prepares them for the relief of getting out of that body. So I could not mourn their death but instead celebrate their freedom.
I am not anxious for death but I am ready for it. I hope my friends will celebrate my life and my freedom and be grateful to have known me,
Love and Light,
Aunt Pat
I have really been thinking about life and death, lately. On August 14th I celebrated my 78th birthday, I have lived longer than anyone in my family. In the past year I have had lung cancer and a stroke. my biggest loss was the sight in my right eye. My other eye has very poor vision and I am using a magnifying glass to do any reading, The doctors say I will not get my vision back, but you know me...I believe in miracles.
Living in Senor Housing you experience death of friends often. Most of the people who have died were welcoming it. Pain and loss of abilities prepares them for the relief of getting out of that body. So I could not mourn their death but instead celebrate their freedom.
I am not anxious for death but I am ready for it. I hope my friends will celebrate my life and my freedom and be grateful to have known me,
Love and Light,
Aunt Pat
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But the brief flash of experience I had last month has made me feel so sorrowful for people who survive natural disasters such as the Fukushima nuclear disaster and the tsunami, and who lose everyone in their families. I can only begin to imagine what they must be going through. Not to mention the thousands of people who lose their families in war.
The opportunity to prepare oneself emotionally for the loss of a loved one truly does help greatly. But there are times when even when one sees it coming, one knows that the person is going to pass away soon, it can still really hit the person much harder than he or she may have anticipated.
I personally think one of the things that helps is as much communication and visits with the loved one while they are still with us as is possible. I think the talks and contact fill a need for both people and that this tends to help the surviving friends and family deal with the deaths when they occur.
Following my earlier post, quoted below:
My sister died on 6 September. It was so quick - she was diagnosed on 8 August.
I was with her for the last 3 days.
I don't have anything philosophical to say about death and dying at this time. I'm still in a very sad space, and haven't felt able to post about it until today. I have felt angry at times that she had to go when she had so much to live for. She had just had her 65th birthday on 9 August. It seems too cruel.
My perception has shifted a little since I read in our newspaper this morning that a young man was killed at a railway crossing, and I have thought too about Karen losing her too young son. I can't imagine how a parent or child or sibling would ever get over that. I'm going to try to remember the many good times and be thankful for those.
The last days were a nightmare. Though I wouldn't have wanted to be anywhere else, it is horrible to watch your sister go through the process of dying, the shutting down of the body.
She was pain free throughout, and that was wonderful, and her daughter, grand-daughter, me, and 3 of her dearest friends were with her at the end. We were reassuring her and loving her till her last breath. We don't know if she was aware of that, although it is said that hearing is the last sense to go.
QUOTE=Kutta;718209]Thank you for your post Petey. I honestly don't know where I am at this point in relation to loved ones who are dying. A week ago I learnt that my younger sister has pancreatic and liver cancer. We don't know how this is going to pan out, but from all accounts she has not got long. I'm fearful of the end stages. I'm trying to keep on top of the stress. I shall be there for her and hope I can be of some use.
We are talking and can do easily about death and dying.
She is virtually pain free at the moment as she is on morphine and can have as much of it as she needs.
I have no concerns about the possibility of after life, and nor does she. It's the here and now and however long she is with us that weighs on me. How I can ease things for her and for her daughter and grandchildren.
It has put a new perspective on my own recent drama with cancer. That drama is over.
The biggest regret is that which you did not say to that person who is no longer present. You cannot be sure they understood how much they are loved and missed.
Nice post.
I am in my 80s, and the majority of my friends are dead.
There must be something to this Dianetic stuff. I am " healthy as a horse", and feel great most of the time.
However, every morning when I wake up, I think " O here I am alive still". LOL.
I think of death as a great adventure and I do not dread it inthe least.
phenomanon
In the past month I've experienced the deaths of two people I have been close to. This is not a plea for sympathy (please don't give me any, I've had plenty) but just to set the context. Both were irreplaceable and I'd known one all my life and the other for all my adult life. Both were foreseen, to a greater or lesser extent. Both came as a complete cut-you-off-at-the-knees shock. I was there at the death of one, and missed the other by moments. One remained lucid to the last day; the other was effectively in some largely unaware state (I think).
So for most of this year I've been thinking about and dealing with impending death. Several things amaze me. One is that though the spirit/soul/being/whatever wants to get free of the failing body, what the witness sees is a terrifying struggle. Another is that western culture really has no ritual for the dying except for religious rituals. (Maybe this is a fundamental need that religion fills.) And further, when those rites are performed -- through the eucharist, absolution, extreme unction at least in the Christian rites -- the dying person is grateful, and (in my sample of two) it seems to ease their passing.
It also occurred to me that western culture does, however, have rituals for the ones who didn't die. One of these is "counselling", a word I hate not just because of its Scientological overtones but also its semantic connection with "advice". I have been offered counselling by the hospital and by palliative care services. I refused both times and wondered why my refusal was so instinctual and certain. And for the record, I'm not at all averse to psychotherapy.
Here's my theory that applies only to me. I wanted to know how it resonates with others.
When people who are important in your life take some time to die, that allows you some time to get used to the idea and feel natural wondering about death and what happens during and after. Death becomes as visible and quotidian as life, with which it is of course naturally and inevitably bound in this binary universe. You can talk about a will and a funeral while making porridge in the morning, quite naturally. It's more normal to be speculating about the afterlife than to be telling someone how much you'll miss them.
When you respect and love someone, their death is as meaningful to you as their life. The extent of their importance is the measure of the grief and loss you experience, and the awe-ful inevitability and real-ness of what has happened, that you can never go back to "before". There are many ways to honour that importance -- and the gravity and majesty of death -- and one way is to experience it fully, to sustain the loss, to take the blow. If the cost is sleepless nights, sharp pain, then so be it. I will stay with it until time does its thing. I don't want counselling or sedation to cast a shadow. I'm OK with feeling that blaze till it dies away.
If this sounds like "be there and confront", it's not at all. It's way more engaged and participatory. It's also fearful.
Brave words, eh? It was how I felt and still do with respect to my two exasperating, quirky, stubborn beloveds. But then again -- if the one who died was a 16-year old, or a baby, or a partner who just fell down dead too early in life, how would I feel? I'm pretty sure I'd be ready for "counselling" then.
I think the difference is the slower onset of death which enabled me to prepare myself, to say and do everything I could. And in the presence of death, amazing things can be said with total honesty. There are no secrets -- except for what happens next.
Do others feel the same way?