I think writing is your way, to go around with your past and your time were you was a Scientologist. Now you are not a Scientoligist. You must not tell the public everything what happen, maybe a diary helps. In a few days, years, month,... you can read again your thoughts and see how your live changed to anything better.
Maybe you should think about it, what it means not beeing a Scientologist. I mean how should your life be in 1 month or maybe in 10 years. You are having now the chance to create your life.
The board does help you, but sometimes is it usefull to talk with a real person. I don't know if you are having a friend, maybe one of your old friends. In Germany (in Russia?) exist advice centers they are specialist on sects. Maybe you can go there and talk with people.
But you are now free and I am sure you will find your way to get lucky.