Lulu Belle
Moonbat
Dementia is not 24/7 - the memory comes and goes. Sometimes someone with dementia remembers everything, sometimes they're just in another world altogether. Some remember people and things more recent, some remember people and things from the past. There's no real rules for it, but I've observed that when a person is anxious or depressed, the dementia is at its worst. The best way to deal with it is just go with the flow and don't take it personally. Forget about trying to bring back the mother you knew, and just accept whoever or however she is when you see her. If she's talking about a birthday party 20 years ago, be a participant. If she always hated cheesecake and suddenly loves it, that's okay too! The only real rule is to be good to the person, don't talk about them in front of them, don't talk to them like they are children, but treat them with dignity and as if they are just FINE. It is the true test of love, of accepting a person exactly as they are, how they are, with all the faults, physical and mental, but if you do that, you will have peace of mind and will be good company for your mother and make her happy, too.
On the plus side, it's usually pretty easy to make an elderly person with dementia happy. They expect so little and are so appreciative.
Keep her relaxed, keep her happy. There will be days and times she remembers you, but don't try to force it or make it happen because that just causes stress to both of you and the only thing you really can do to help is keep any stress to a minimum and be completely in the present with her. NOTHING else helps, I promise you (other than general healthy things... there is no miracle cure, though, and dementia cycles downward no matter what.) You could have keepsakes and personal things, pictures and such, around to help trigger her memory, but if they upset her because she can't remember and wants to do so, then do what she wishes to keep her calm and happy and remove what may upset her.
It's not as bad as you think. Like I said, most dementia people are pretty easy to please and most are pretty happy. It's the family that feels all twisted about it because they have expectations of memories that just aren't there anymore. Enjoy her for who she is now, be adaptable and ready for change at every visit and just be with her and make her happy. Forget any serious conversations about anything - what's done or not done in the past is over. Messy or not, it cannot be repaired. All you can do now is be the best child a mother ever had.
Sheila....
I have to be honest with you.
I don't know and can't judge how it is for other people, but for me, I can't relate to being this perfect child of a parent in this state.
It's one thing to be in a controlled environment, dealing with people who have been put on correct medication, who are being properly cared for by professionals. Who you can pop by for a visit once in a while, then leave.
And who you aren't related to.
That may be your reality, but it sure isn't mine.
This is not the reality that a lot of us children face. Some of us have parents who refuse to see a doctor. That can't afford to have someone come and make them take medications every day and who refuse to take them on their own.
Who, every time you try to get them to do something they don't want to do that's for their own good, they turn on you.
They aren't "easy to please" and they aren't "pretty happy".
What my reality is is that the system has basically told me: "It's your mother. It's your problem." But I'm the last person, in reality, that my mother will listen to. To her, I'm still the kid, and there's no way her kid is going to tell her what to do.
And, she's my mother. Even before the dementia I couldn't spend an entire day with her without feeling like I was going to lose my mind. She drives me crazy. She pushes my buttons. Now it's like everything about her that drove me bonkers even before the dementia is amplified by the disease.
It's just...not that easy. I read all these things from all these noble kids who took care of their parents and I feel like I'm a total shit because...I don't want to do this. I never signed up for it. If I could hand it over to someone else, I probably would.
But I don't have a choice. She doesn't have anyone else. I have to make my way through this the best I can because there isn't an alternative.
But I don't have to like it. And I'll be the first one to tell you I'm not good at it.
And I never will be "the best child a mother ever had".