so... I went and let myself get distracted again sorry lol I spent 20 years or so of being completely "out" and not really giving a damn about what had been going on in and around scn and suddenly I find myself reading through it all - weird but cathartic.
I've been trying to get my head around timelines of everything - not really important I know, but it kinda bugs me that I cant get all the timings straight in my head. I know the first time around on staff started first school holidays of my first year in high school so that puts us about may/june 1983, I was still there for the whole portland fuss which If i recall correctly was the same year I left school so thats 85'ish and I was still on first time around when LRH died (early 86?) - so if Dad had got his way and I had signed a 2 1/2 year contract I would actually have made it to the end. In some ways that would have been good - the big button that got me back in twice more was that I felt I had made commitments I hadn't honoured and that I had let people down that mattered to me, that wouldn't have been an issue to me then. The downside though would have been that I would probably still be there now if my contract had finished at that point. I was still winning despite frustrations on post, staff were still getting auditing at that point and all the "little" outpoints I could see seemed fixable still. Had my contract ended then I have no doubt I would either have resigned, or signed an SO contract which I was kind of keen on at the time or saved my money and started on my bridge.
Seems weird to say "start my bridge" after being around for a few years. I had done a comm course and basic study course when I first came into contact with scn that Dad and Pat had paid for, but everything else had been admin training, I got good things from that and still use some of it but I didnt really have much personal experience with studying the "tech" I was trying to convince everyone was the big way forward. Auditing wise I'd had some book 1 at the start then everything else was kinda of mix and match depending on what students needed in the way of a pc. Started out normal enough while Dick and Amy Povall were still on staff there was regular staff auditing and I got thru grade 0 & 1 in a "normal " kind of sequence but after they left and the only auditing was as a PC for students that it got a little weird. One week a little grade 4, then maybe some grade 2, back for more grade 0 (even though it had been previously attested to) then maybe some more 4...etc it was just all over the place. I didn't mind I figured any auditing was better than no auditing and I felt I was getting something out of it. At some point that first time round I had *that* cog or a close enough variation at the examiner after a session and was told to start saving my pennies for DCSI (this was shortly before it became CCRD so 85ish?) and thats where my book commissions started going towards for the next little while, it wasn't a service you could get for free as staff in a class iv org but, as Marion had enthusiastically pointed out, I could get a 50% staff discount on the intensives. Even at half price there was no way I was going to be able to make it happen while I was still at school and I put such a "must have" on it I decided I was just going to have to leave school and get a job. Its still the stupidest decision I ever made, and the thing that makes it even more stupid was I never finished paying off the intensive before I blew so the thing I threw my education away for never ended up happening
I've been trying to get my head around timelines of everything - not really important I know, but it kinda bugs me that I cant get all the timings straight in my head. I know the first time around on staff started first school holidays of my first year in high school so that puts us about may/june 1983, I was still there for the whole portland fuss which If i recall correctly was the same year I left school so thats 85'ish and I was still on first time around when LRH died (early 86?) - so if Dad had got his way and I had signed a 2 1/2 year contract I would actually have made it to the end. In some ways that would have been good - the big button that got me back in twice more was that I felt I had made commitments I hadn't honoured and that I had let people down that mattered to me, that wouldn't have been an issue to me then. The downside though would have been that I would probably still be there now if my contract had finished at that point. I was still winning despite frustrations on post, staff were still getting auditing at that point and all the "little" outpoints I could see seemed fixable still. Had my contract ended then I have no doubt I would either have resigned, or signed an SO contract which I was kind of keen on at the time or saved my money and started on my bridge.
Seems weird to say "start my bridge" after being around for a few years. I had done a comm course and basic study course when I first came into contact with scn that Dad and Pat had paid for, but everything else had been admin training, I got good things from that and still use some of it but I didnt really have much personal experience with studying the "tech" I was trying to convince everyone was the big way forward. Auditing wise I'd had some book 1 at the start then everything else was kinda of mix and match depending on what students needed in the way of a pc. Started out normal enough while Dick and Amy Povall were still on staff there was regular staff auditing and I got thru grade 0 & 1 in a "normal " kind of sequence but after they left and the only auditing was as a PC for students that it got a little weird. One week a little grade 4, then maybe some grade 2, back for more grade 0 (even though it had been previously attested to) then maybe some more 4...etc it was just all over the place. I didn't mind I figured any auditing was better than no auditing and I felt I was getting something out of it. At some point that first time round I had *that* cog or a close enough variation at the examiner after a session and was told to start saving my pennies for DCSI (this was shortly before it became CCRD so 85ish?) and thats where my book commissions started going towards for the next little while, it wasn't a service you could get for free as staff in a class iv org but, as Marion had enthusiastically pointed out, I could get a 50% staff discount on the intensives. Even at half price there was no way I was going to be able to make it happen while I was still at school and I put such a "must have" on it I decided I was just going to have to leave school and get a job. Its still the stupidest decision I ever made, and the thing that makes it even more stupid was I never finished paying off the intensive before I blew so the thing I threw my education away for never ended up happening